Joey -
Well love, here we are, year number four. It's been quite an amazing journey. We've had many ups and many downs, but the important thing is that we've made it through. We've grown a lot as individuals and as a couple. We've learned to not take things for granted but to embrace our love, our life, and never let go. I'm so lucky to have you in my life everyday. I'm so lucky to wake up next to you each morning. Your love means everything to me and I thank you for choosing me to give it to. I thank you for giving me such a great life and such a great family. You are the most hardworking, selfless man I have ever met and I could not take one more breath if it was to be without you. I love you with all of my heart and with that, I wish you a very happy 4th anniversary.

Love, Ash

So sorry I've been MIA for awhile! I've had to deal with some personal issues and kind of took a hiatus from the computer. The issues are resolved for the most part, so here I am. Back. Ready to let some more out. 

So, during the time I was away, I was told that I was a sociopath. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Could it be true? I've done some research but am still a bit confused. Should I talk to someone? A therapist? Any advice or help would be fantastic.

I'm a little blank as of late. Give me a bit to collect my thoughts. I shall be back. XOXO

So, I've recently come out as a bisexual woman. Many of my close friends have known for some time now. I, myself, have known for over 10 years. This doesn't change me as a person and also doesn't change the fact that I am a married woman. I'm married to a man. So, my grandmother informed me that though she doesn't always agree with me, she accepts me for who I am. Apparently, my grandpa says that "the whole world is turning gay." I thought that was quite hilarious. I guess some people in my family are trying to make it a bigger deal than it is. Rather annoying. I'm not this way to cause controversy or to gain attention. I am who I am.

Anyway, I just wanted to throw that out there since I am proud of who I am. I think by just coming out, I am telling the world that I don't give a shit what anyone thinks. I've played that card for so long now (being someone else to please others) and I have grown tired. It's time to be me, for me. 

*Sigh* That felt good.

So we've had a tornado watch for the past three days now! (There is one as we speak!) Ugh, I'm so sick of it. I also HATE rain and am sick of that too. 

I want to move away from here so bad. I wish Mr. J's job wasn't so crucial. I hate Illinois, I really do.

I warned you that it was coming sooner or later. I'm sure this will be the first of many.

It states in the bible that "God is the only judge." If this is the case, then why are "christians" the most judgemental people of all? I don't get it. This is one of the reasons why 99.9% of the "christians" I meet are hypocrites. They can't even follow their own religion! Do you call yourself a "christian" just for show? Just so you'll be accepted? Are you playing follow the leader? Think for yourself! If you believe in something/follow a religion because it's what everyone else is doing then you have no backbone.

Something interesting for you to ponder (I did not write this, btw.)...

Top Ten Signs You're A Christian
10 - You vigorously deny the existence of thousands of gods claimed by other religions, but feel outraged when someone denies the existence of your god.

9 - You feel insulted and "dehumanized" when scientists say that people evolved from lesser life forms, but you have no problem with the biblical claim that we were created from dirt.

8 - You laugh at polytheists, but you have no problem believeing in a trinity god.

7 - Your face turns purple when you hear of the "atrocities" atributed to allah, but you don't even flinch when hearing about how god/jehovah slaughtered all of the babies of Egypt in exodus and and ordered the elimination of entire ethnic groups in joshua--including women, children and trees!

6 - You laugh at Hindu beliefs, and Greek claims about gods sleeping with women, but you have no problem believing that the holy spirit impregnated Mary, who then gave birth to a man-god who got killed, came back to life and then ascended into the sky.

5 - You are willing to spend your life looking for little loop-holes in the scientifically established age of the Earth (4.55 billion years), but you find nothing wrong with believing dates recorded by prehistoric tribesmen sitting in their tents and guessing that the Earth is a couple of generations old.

4 - You believe that the entire population of this planet with the exception of those who share your beliefes--though excluding those in all rival sects--will spend eternity in an infinite hell of suffering. And yet you consider your religion to be the most "tolerant" and "loving."

3 - While modern science, history, geology, biology and physics have failed to convince you otherwise, some idiot rolling around on the floor speaking in "tongues" may be all the evidence you need to prove christianity.

2 - You define 0.01% as a "high sucess rate" when it comes to answered prayers. You consider that to be evidence that prayer works. And you think the remaining 99.99% FAILURE was simply the will of god.

1 - You actually know a lot less than many Atheists and Agnostics do about the bible, christianity and church history--but still call yourself a christian.

Some statistics for you to ponder...

There are 850 million+ Atheists all over the world.
Atheists make up almost 90% of Germany.
Atheists have the lowest divorce rate in the US.

Why do so many people think so highly of themselves? Why do so many people think that they know all? Why do people think that their actions won't affect others in the long run? WHY OH WHY?!

Of course you may name your child(ren) whatever you want. Living in the free United States you have that pleasure. I think that right should be stripped from more than half of this country.

1. Giving your daughter a boy's name is not "cool" or "unique." It's a stupid trend and it only makes you look ignorant. Why choose a clearly masculine name for your little girl when there are thousands of beautiful feminine names out there? It makes no sense at all. And the argument that "I gave my daughter a masculine name because it's stronger" is pure bullshit. So, in order for your daughter to be "strong," she has to have a boy's name? What kind of idiotic message is that? Believe me, I have a traditionally male name and I HATE it.

2. Replacing vowels with Ys also makes you look stupid. Why not spell things with the correct vowels? What's so bad about A, E, I, O and U? Spelling Madison, Madisyn just makes you look illiterate. It's making an already awful name, worse. Also, spelling Mason, Masyn doesn't make the name feminine. It's just misspelling a boy's name. Once again, it makes you look stupid. 

3. Creatively spelled names are just a headache for your child(ren). It's not "cute" or "unique." It's dumb. Christopher doesn't need to be Kristafer. Just leave it alone. It's fine as is. Remember, this isn't going to be your name...it's going to be your child's. Your child will be spelling his/her name to everyone for the rest of his/her life. It's not worth it. Please, save your child from a HUGE headache. If you don't know how to spell, I suppose there will be more headaches to come. ;)

Also, I feel I need to add this...
Just because you create a naming blog doesn't mean you are a naming expert...especially when you take material from other sites. If you aren't an expert don't act like you are and hand out false information. Do some research before you humiliate yourself!

Well, now I'm glad I got that out of my system.

 So here it is. My first LJ post. You know, I'm not really sure why I'm here. I orginally planned to bitch and moan about the idiots of the world. While I'm positive I'd have enough material, maybe I'll broaden my horizons and talk about a variety of things. 

A little about me so you won't be confused reading my entries...
My name's Ashley. I really hate my name. Call me Ash if you'd like.
I'm married to an amazing man named Joey and have been with him for over 5 years.
We have two beautiful little girls. They are 2.5 years old and 7 months old.
I'm a stay-at-home-mom.
My husband and I live a very alternative lifestyle. We are into tattoos, piercings and rock music.
Just because we're into the above doesn't mean we're bad people or bad parents.
I'm an atheist. That also doesn't make me a bad person. (I'm sure I will occasionally rant about religion. Please feel free to debate me and such. However, do not feel free to call names or belittle me. Remember this blog expresses MY opinions.)
I love intellectual conversation. Try me.

Please feel free to leave lots of comments on my posts (good or bad). I'm always looking for great conversation/debate. 

Edited to add...my username is a combination of Sweeney Todd and Bettie Page. Two loves of mine.